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I just want to blog to get a couple things off my chest before school starts. So first things first, Things are going a little downhill now. Stress, annoyances, boredom, etc. It all starts, though, because of you. Of course, I care. But not enough anymore. So although it's not a good thing, there is still an up side to it. I know what I need and what I need isn't you. You're supposed to make me happy, and forget about all the bad out there. Be there for me when i'm having a bad day or just be the one thing I look forward to talking to every day even when nothing else is going my way. But I see myself having to push you away because your the very thing that puts me down. So where do I turn to then? All I have are my best friends. You say you get jealous cause i'm always with them or we have that connection and you're not at that point with me yet. But why do you think things are that way? I guess it's just cause we'll never connect in that fashion. But that's okay. Certain people click and others don't so there's nothing we can do but push each other away for good. I'm glad, though. Better sooner than later. But I guess I was right from the start. I didn't want it, but I gave it a chance.. Turned out to be worse than I would have ever thought. So there ya have it, first instincts are almost always accurate and my first instinct was at least 150% accurate. On the other hand, from the first day I told you that I didn't wanna lose our friendship so hopefully that's still wandering around somewhere in our relationship.. hopefully.

The last week of summer has been a little dull. We try to cram in so many events and we haven't followed any of them. There's nothing left to do but head back to school now. Luckily, there was not one day in my summer where I thought, "I just wanna go back to school now." Up until today, I think fun time has finally drained through the hourglass and it's time to get back on track! College apps are due mid-November but after those are all turned in and taken care of, life should be good. Back to our natural highs, yeah? Ha. This summer has been full of artificial euphoria. Am I right or am I right, BooBoo? Although the down side of going back to school is the fact that we'll all dread getting up any earlier than 12pm. Sucks. Oh well, i'll be out by 12 and going back home for those afternoon naps. Then HOPEFULLY, I can start work and start working from 4pm-9pm and making some cash money cause my wallet is completely dry now. Then after all that, hopefully we can find a nice boy who is actually worth lifting a finger for. They're like 4 leaf clovers nowadays. So fucking hard to find! Haha. And at the same time, maintain all these friendships we've made throughout this lovely summer of 09. Thank God we made it through this summer safely and healthy. We pray for everyone who was caught up in the accident yesterday night but life goes on, and with time, people will start to realize that. Say goodbye to those nice summer nights and say hello to my new Econ and math book. Woopee.